Spirituality and Mindfulness Guidance
MY STORY
From humble beginnings to a rollercoaster of a life - juggling the good and the bad to come out on the top.
The Start
I grew up in a poor family in Eastern Europe that had a deep history of violence and crime. My dad was in and out of jail in one country or another due to his involvement with gangs and my mum left when I was about 8 to work abroad to help provide for me, my sister, and my nan. My nan essentially was both my mum and my dad, she raised me to be a proper, respectable man.
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From the age of 6, I was forced to go to wrestling classes since that was the sport that was a big part of my dad’s family. I hated it to begin with as I struggled to make friends at the gym and the ones I had where I was living saw me less since I had to go to training. Eventually, I grew to love wrestling and could not stop going. It helped me feel grounded and to stay focused.
My Relatable
Life Struggles
My whole life I was chasing accomplishments recognition and things. I was focusing on external gratification.
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I have accomplished great things as part of this journey:
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Multiple time national freestyle wrestling champion.
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Top 5 in Europe.
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Top 10 in the world.
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Candidate for 2012 London Olympics.
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Became a chartered accountant.
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Became a head of finance.
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Opened up my own accountancy practice.
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Launched my own coaching business.
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It's quite a list and these are just the major ones however one thing that I have noticed is that there was never lasting satisfaction in any of it. Once I achieve one thing the next follows. This cycle was inducing stress, anxiety, negativity, unnecessary pressure in my life.
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I kept looking for external solutions to everything in life because everyone was doing the exact same thing and surely that is the right way forward!?
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In a nutshell, I was clinging on experiences that constructed an expectation of the world in front of me. Experiences that were out of my control and had zero relevance to how life should be lived.
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On top of that I was trying to control what was going to happen by making my greatest asset, my mind, work overtime to make these things come to fruition. We all know that we cannot control the flow of destined events because we do not know with a 100% certainty what will happen the next second.
The Make It or Break It Moment
The more time passed and the more I have accomplished externally the more I realised that what I am trying to do is insanity.
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The only moment that exists is the present moment but I was persistently clinging to the construct of time, to the past or future.
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My psyche has constructed such an elaborate fractal in my mind that it was so difficult to just simply be and not have it working overtime in my head constantly evaluating, worrying, judging, stressing, hating and so much more.
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All negativity that can be avoided was coming from that voice in my head - The Thinker.
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Something had to change so I took action.
Rediscovering The
Truth
At this point I was close with my dad and I have seen how incredible of a change meditation had on him so I talked about it and it sounded too good to be true - using your mind to heal ailments, no stress, no anger, happiness from within, abundant energy, content with silence and nothingness.
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I had to give it a go so I did and here we are today.
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Now I facilitate guiding sessions for people that struggle with the same issues and are finding it difficult to live life because of the insatiable need for external satisfaction.
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Now I am content with living in a van traveling the world and expanding my horizons of my consciousness through deep spiritual work, mindfulness and meditation. Something that I have been doing for over 3 years.
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My life is unrecognisable as I am slowly moving away from NEEDING to do things in life to WANTING to do things.
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Your life does not need to be the same conventional lifeless existence that everyone has. All hatred in the world would stop if people would become more conscious of how incredible life is in this moment.
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If this resonates with you deeply then consider clicking the button below to find out how I can help you become liberated.